trials...

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Great faith must first endure great trials...

Over the past five years of my illness, I have read and re-read the above statement. I am still waiting for the great trial to end and the great faith to begin.

For now I can only live for the day and try not to think of the past or the future. When I catch myself thinking about the past, I get sucked into the black hole of depression and it usually takes me days to snap out of it.

I live for the pleasure of the little things... a day without a headache, a day for myself, seeing an old friend, scoring a great find, passing time where I forget I have an illness.